Q sighed, pushing his hair back and looking away from the pair. He was silent for a long moment, and his gaze remained a million miles away even as he finally spoke again.
"You know back in London, before six, I was... I was a mess, honestly. I spent my days surrounded by tech, looking into things that could have landed me behind bars and my nights with older men who I pretended cared about me. ...That's not in any of my files. Not something you could look up about me. It's true though, I spent a very long time looking for things from people who had no interest in giving them to me. Some of them had wives, many of them had jobs they wouldn't dare risk by being caught with some teenager. So there is something about sitting in a room with two men of a certain age who do, apparently, have a genuine interest in me. ...I say that not to be cocky, but to make my position better understood, I think." he said, finally forcing himself to look at James, and then Harry. "It's hard not to be greedy after you've been starved, I suppose."
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"You know back in London, before six, I was... I was a mess, honestly. I spent my days surrounded by tech, looking into things that could have landed me behind bars and my nights with older men who I pretended cared about me. ...That's not in any of my files. Not something you could look up about me. It's true though, I spent a very long time looking for things from people who had no interest in giving them to me. Some of them had wives, many of them had jobs they wouldn't dare risk by being caught with some teenager. So there is something about sitting in a room with two men of a certain age who do, apparently, have a genuine interest in me. ...I say that not to be cocky, but to make my position better understood, I think." he said, finally forcing himself to look at James, and then Harry. "It's hard not to be greedy after you've been starved, I suppose."